she's so mad right now, but she might be asleep, so...if i'm quiet and contrite...i might get a hug and kiss

Ok, so, things are gonna get in-tents (like boyscouts!) right off the bat... the REV is a person who actually had someone tell her and throw a weapon at her to go ahead and shoot him. She did. And for all the right reasons. He beat her, he was not a good man. Jerk lived...father of her children....all that it entails...trial ensued. She's a local personality (then on the radio) so the local news is all over it. The jury finds her NOT GUILTY. Now, a few years later...we meet...fall in love...our time so far has been spent in a figuring out process. She's got 3 kids, she can't see them... I have no experience with kids... besides everything else that I have no experience with! I was with the same girl for near 20 years before this. (divorced in '07) She (the ex) didn't have the same relationship with her kids that the REV has. The REV is one of the most vibrant people I've ever met. She's quick, witty, smart, well read, polite, kind, nice, amazing, smart, challenging, smart, unruly, pirate, stubborn, Taurian, funny(not queer, funny, haha, with a little bit of queer) smart, did I already say that? The REV is the one. It took me nigh on 25 years to get the fact that the REV was who I was looking for. Testing the rest, waiting for the big knock in the noggin! I tried to get it right....maybe i tried too hard. (ok, i can't remember to capitalize my capitals!) from now on i won't try. bear with me. she's so unusual, tonight, after the bar, we had a conversation about personal carry options (gun) at the bar. we've had a few gun talks before... and a friend gave her a neat little raven to carry. where we live, you gotta have a permit to carry tucked(concealed), however, you don't need one to carry open at your "work or place of business". the talk tonight was all about her right to carry at all. i think she did the right thing in her past situation...i want her to realize that her life has moved on. i was trying to explain to her that for a few $$ and a safety class she could carry tucked at work, and if at any time she felt uncomfortable, un-tucked. well, this opened the door, the conversation from hell. she allowed as how i didn't really know the ramifications of the options...as if, (i'm a carrier for 15 yrs)i couldn't grasp her situation. true.,..i couldn't. but i was trying to give her the new options and she went on & on about how i couldn't understand her past. of course i couldn't. i've never (and hope never to)shoot anyone. that's the whole point of concealed carry...you have to be aware and more alert to the crazy, idiotic, unruly, drunk, drugged, unexpected people in your life. you have to choose to be part of the solution, not the problem. but the talk dis-integrated to "you don't under stand" and i tried to explain that i truly couldn't understand her perspective, not having been though anything near what she'e gone through. stubborn... did i mention smart? so, i'm having a few rums (3/4 oz of sailor jerry, and a ginger back)she's gone to bed after a shower, and i love the smell of clean girl. i'm drinking and blogging right now and am glad for it. thanks for listening.............today, is another day. i can't wait to read the comments. so far my sis, her man, and me da, his lady and me ma, her man and herself (the REV) know about my blog. whew, i hope i never hear the end of this....